Hi, I am Heather and I am going to tell you how I went from feeling stuck, helpless, and barely surviving, to feeling whole, confident, self-trusting, and radiant.

During my teenage years, I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, and was put on medication to stabilize my mood and manage my anxiety. During this time, I was completely dysregulated, I felt abandoned by my parents, I experienced sexual trauma and an abortion,  I became addicted to drugs, nicotine, and alcohol, I experimented with self-harm, had the death urge, and I could not imagine my life past my teenage years.

These experiences left me feeling depressed, anxious, helpless, broken, and too traumatized. I experienced ‘random’ fevers, unexplained pancreatitis, skin issues, gut issues, tinnitus, insomnia, and other physical symptoms.

In my early 20’s, I decided that I wanted things to be different and I didn’t want to feel empty anymore. I wanted to ‘fix’ what was wrong with me. I became vegetarian and then later vegan, I quit smoking, caffeine, my medication, and I began to spend time in nature, I juiced and did cleanses, I took supplements, I read self help books, I worked with crystals and did yoga, I was doing all of the things that people said would heal me. And I still felt like something was missing. I was still miserable, in pain, stuck, defeated, but curious.

Years went by and my obsession with healing grew stronger. I still had constant ringing in my left ear, I went literal days without sleeping, I was bloated 24/7, and developed my first cold sore that lasted 8+ months. Each of these struggles only proved that something was wrong with me and that I was incurable and broken. Every moment spent awake, I would feel scared, helpless, alone, broken, and obsessively research a cure for the physical responses I was experiencing.

All I wanted was a pill to take, to make all the pain and suffering go away! I just wanted to feel normal.

Fast forward to the COVID-19 pandemic. I made the decision to live life for me, and choose happiness and a lifestyle that my heart was calling for! I bought a Sprinter Van, and decided to live the unconventional ‘vanlife.’ I traveled, rock climbed, worked for the National Park Service, bathed in waterfalls, fell asleep to crashing waves or crickets, I danced, I bought a skateboard, I learned to slackline, I spent countless days on the beach, and did what filled me with joy and presence! I met chosen family and my partner, and gained a community I never had.

Then, another deep depression hit, as it always did. This brought back the anxiety, the fear of the night as it approached, watching the sun come up day after day while trying to fall asleep, the constant squealing and ringing in my ear, feeling like my belly would pop from the unbearable pressure and hardness, and watching all of my relationships struggle and crumble.

Something else had to change, and I had to take back my life. I got even more curious, and realized that I was relying on external resources to ‘fix me’ or to fill that missing puzzle piece inside of me.

I then found my breath.

This led to:

• Deepening my relationship with myself and my body and reclaiming my wholeness

• Repairing and creating a conscious relationship with my partner

• Developing confidence, self-trust, celebrating myself, and experiencing joy and pleasure again

• Loving myself and the body that I am in and creating a connection between my mind, body, and soul

• Working through Self-Limiting beliefs, resistances, and blocks

• Choosing a fulfilling career allowing me to live life on my own terms

• Regulating my nervous system, discovering tools that actually work to support me, and healing the physical responses that came from my emotional responses

• Allowing myself to be that rebel, that change maker, and live as my authentic self

Now, I support other Women in their growth and healing physically, mentally, and emotionally. I support Women in finding themselves again after feeling lost, defeated, and broken — because you don’t have to continue to struggle or do it alone!